helloooo, today was litttle better, i actually ate something!^^ well, it was little cereals in the morning:P but still something:33

i've been having these anxiety-attacks all the time, it is normal for me, but i think i'm crushing slowly because of them and everything.

i don't know how much longer i can take myself

 

i think o'm gonna keep on smiling until i can't take it anymore

why i'm so lost all the time???

 i think i should just sleep it away...

worst thing is that i can't

because every fucking time i close my eyes i die again and again and againagainagainagain make it stop

i think i'm losing it

but it's okey, because i can allways fake that everything is fine

and

i know

they believe me