i think my head is gonna explode....

nothing makes sense anymore

i'm feeling outsider with my friends for no reason ;___;

i didn't eat anything on monday and on tuesday, i felt like shit and i almost fainted...

today i ate like "normal" peoples do, but i still felt shit and almost throw up.....

i just don't know what to do anymore....

this is how i've been feeling for a whole week

i just don't know anymore

it feels like it doesn't matter if i'm alive or not

"go to sleep and close your eyes

and dream of broken butterflies

that tore their wings against a thorn

you know the pain they have born

silver medal shine so bright

scarlet blood that feels so right

dream of blood trickling down

and wake up just before you drown

moonlight's shining trough your tears

as you bleed out your own worst fears

so tonight when you start to cry

whisper the cutters lullaby

hushabye baby your almost dead

you don't have a pulse and your pillow is red

your family hates you, your friends let you bleed

sleep tight with a knife cause thats all that you need

rockabye baby broken and scarred 

you didn't know that life would be this hard

time to end the pain you hid so well

and down will come baby

straight 

back

to 

hell"

worst thing is, i can't feel pain anymore

i don't know how to cry