so anxious

why i won't get better

i'm in a car

on my way to Tampere, me and my family are gonna spent a night in there

 and tomorrow in Helsinki

on monday our plane is leaving to Miami, first time in America yeeeey......

i don't know, i'm not that exited about it,

reason to that might be that our mom want's to move there and it's too possible

this place is depressing, but i still son't want to leave

past month i've got to know maybe the best peoples in my life

Weight losing isn't going so well, i hate myself

everyone is telling me

"you'r not trying"

"why you've given up?"

IM TRYING

IM SORRY IM NOT SO STRONG AS YOU THINK I AM

i promised again not to cut again, i really try

but i can't promise anything

if i do, you shouldn't believe it

i'll keep fighting

for devil, robin, gamer, and for everyone whose important to me

eventough i'm might not be that important to them

but still, i've not lost if i'm still alive