standing in front of mirror

all i can think of is cutting and cuts i can see when i'm watching in mirror

and how fat and ugly i am

i can see all that in mirror

i can also see the pain that no-one else can

I'M SO FAT 

how i didn't notice this before

i must lose weight

for now on, i'll drink only water, and i'll run 6km every evening

i can see cuts in my skin and i only want more of them

i just don't know what to do anymore

i'm drowning, just now i won't tell anyone, hss, it's a secret i need to keep so i wont bother everyone else

yes, that's my wrist

i so stupid, why i didn't cut deeper?