do you know the feeling when you bring blade to your skin and cut?

it cuts so smooth and without a pain...

 if i think about it

today was actually really fun, i was with my friends and school was okey

so

what changed?

nothing

i don't even fucking know anymore,

i know peoples care about me

and wan't to help me

but i don't let them....

it's sad

and i don't even know why....

i guess i've finally became numb

again....

funny

i tried it so long

and now

i can't even enjoy it

but it's okay

it's kinda part of the point